Jadie,
I know I am always writing you, through text messages, through instant messages, etc… I know you probably understand more than most, but sometimes the meaning of my thoughts get lost in the noise. This noise, which you have come to know as the complication of us, although profound, can be exhausting at best. I know I can be exhausting, and maybe I am being too generous in my description, but I need to know you know that you are special and beautiful beyond description. This is one truth I need you to know. If I have to spend my life composing it a million different ways I will, thankfully I never get tired of telling you this. You tell me I see more than what you are, as if I take this image of you and add this imaginary narrative to create this person that doesn’t exist. Maybe I see more than the current moment, I see your past, I see your future and I see perfect heart you keep hidden from the world. If I’m wrong, if I am dreaming, I hope I never wake up, but I know I am not dreaming. There are only a few truths I know and you are one. No one, not even you will be able steal that from me. I know your heart doesn’t belong to me, maybe it never will, but it doesn’t matter. You inspire greatness in me, and loving you has taught me to be fearless. I know you can’t understand why, and to be honest I don’t understand why. All I know is that you give me reason to burn bright, so thank you. Thank you for your love. I’m sorry if you have heard this all before, tonight I am just missing you and feeling a little guilty because I know I will not be around for as long as you want me to be. I know you are strong and can live a life without me, and maybe I am thinking to much of myself, but when I woke up from my dream last night you were the first thing that came to mind. Ok I really need to sleep its getting harder and harder to complete thoughts. I just want you to know I love more than ever and even though I miss you there is a part of me that is happy to you know you finally found someone that makes you happy.
Love,
J