Chapter 19 – N/A

Gregory woke up just a few minutes before 5 a.m. The morning was still thick with darkness from the previous night. Off in the distance he heard the trains whistle. This triggered the memory of his father. His father was a truck driver and he always left early. As a child he’d always wake up early to see him off. Ever since he died these early hours felt lonely, at least until he met Jadie. He never realized that until this morning. There were many changes coming up in life for Gregory. All parts of his life were changing. He had breifly moved back into his parents house to sell it. A year prior he had ended his long time relationship with Christina. He layed in bed thinking of all the tasks for the upcoming day at work. Finding it hard to concentrate today he turned on the TV hoping to find distraction. He was finding it hard to fight the desire today, the desire that was always in the back of his head. The desire to love her. Loving her always led him to reach out to her, and he knew he had to embrace these cold lonely nights. He knew he loved Jadie too much for this life. A thought that he always felt strange. “How could you love someone too much,” he thought to himself. Somehow the dark early hours of the morning always smacked him in the face with this fact. At this point in this life he felt stronger than he ever did, but still he felt helpless because in the back of his mind he knew he would never love anyone as perfectly or completely as Jadie. Forcing himself to get up he went for a run. Knowing he would selling the house soon these morning runs felt nostalgic. He tried to memorize every house, every tree passed because he knew he would be passed soon. As an exercise of self control he forced his mind to focus on his upcoming date with Karla. He enjoyed his time with Karla, but unfortunately she didn’t still the deep emotions Jadie did. It wasn’t that Karla wasn’t beautiful, or intelligent. She was educated, and in fact was more closer to the type of women Gregory was attracted too. This weekend’s date was set for a French restaurant that Karla had been wanting to go to. Just going through the motions he had reached out to Karla and set this date. Today Gregory’s legs were sore from the week’s run. His feet pounded with a steady cadence. Running was never easy for him but he learned to use his hidden pain to fuel his runs. He ran his usual 3 miles and returned to home to get ready for his work day.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Proudly powered by WordPress
Theme: Esquire by Matthew Buchanan.